Sumarah, practice for total surenderness to God

"Sumarah believer are trying to be vehicle for Allah mandatory or doing as Allah wants us to become."

A notion as manifestation from quaint curiosity have occur from myself lately, it could be expressed in parable such as plunge in a haystack just for founding a needle. This parable indicating lot of motion to go along, even deeper to gain any possibilities with a clear goal but there’s very little change to get there. This interesting fact is being reflected as me trying to stabilize my Sumarah. When I wrote this texts, I am being faced by my upheaval which is happen in my Trimurti, Trimurti is being described as the collaboration of “angen-angen” which representing our body, ”roso” which representing our feeling, and “budi” which representing the light of sublime light. This Ikhwal looks like will not easily achieved, how hard for me to being in complete surenderness in order to embody this believe within my inner self. As me go delegating myself into Sumarah, I do entering my first round for stepping up my awareness.

In my attempt to proceed into this culture believe, I often times conduct some discussion within my KANS art community, a few pastor at GKJ Gondokusuman, Sumarah believer, until it reached my closest social, which is my family with intense criticism that being pulled from it. Then, from that many discussion, I really intend to find the truth about the way that I choose to. At many times, I believe that I do feel like being placed in a boat that wandering in such vast ocean, don’t really believe in everything, until it reach my inner self as being pulled to become such a skepticism terror. It is just become more complex as I place my philosophy knowledge into it. It sure do become a chaos at the first attempt.

Time to time, there’s an awareness that grows within me which come from Sumarah, I slowly realize as me being smelted. In Javanese language, it says that this phenomenon is called “Nyawiji”, but at the most extreme condition, it doesn’t indicate that I can stand in my own two legs, it even broader that me. As me go deeper and deeper, there is a guide to reaching such state, this state is being called “Adem, ayem, tentrem”, Adem is indicating an ambient which represent something cold, cold that has a meaning of being in the most relax condition when there is nothing that can be related to harm ourself. Ayem can be described as our soul condition is entering satisfication that being represented by surenderness feeling within ourself, and tentrem which representing a condition that there is nothing to be fear about which manifested in calmness. It is all in the name of Complete Surrenderness, that being manifested through a state called Sujud Sumarah.

As I go into that state, anxiety seems to be slowly disappear and smelted in the emptiness of my mind, and at the same time, my inner self is filled by spelling “Allah” all the time. It does slowly become opium. In Sumarah, it is being told that everyone had a divine splash within them. It combined with emotion and thinking. The existent of that three aspect is being insisted within me, until I wrote this texts, this aspect is having a lot of dynamics that creates unique development.

Me that goes in the middle of my development within Sumarahbelieve, try to dedicating myself in total contribution along with Sujud Sumarah to Allah. Sujud Sumarah can be described as ourself doing a total surenderness to Allah that being manifested with Dzikir in our inner self that with empty mind. I was told that it has to be implemented in every time and every condition. It means it has to be implemented in 24 hours per day. But it will turn out to be a big mistake if this total surenderness are being reflected in our physic activities with doing nothing. Every kadang (i.e. Sumarah follower surname), and pamong (i.e. Sumarah priest surname) have told me that as we lived, each person still has to struggle for their well-being and their existence within their own public, but in their existence, their inner self has to keep filled with spelling “Allah” all the time. That habit is indicating if each Sumarah believer are trying to be vehicle for Allah mandatory or doing as Allah wants us to become.

In my artwork, it is the first time for me to try bringing a few art piece as medium for my catharsis. Catharsis is being interpreted by me as sanctification behavior that identic with releasing, manifesting that bring spiritual renewal. In creative process to creating my artwork, I do not take any discipline nor knowledge as my basis, instead, I do smelting my intellectual that strongly related with a lot of consideration and using my Sujud Sumarah on purpose to fill that part. Then, it will not relevant if my artwork are being seen from many interpretating knowledge such as philosophy, hermeneutics, nor semiotics that has been in the front place for knowing what artist may has to offer. I do feel that this artwork is the most subjective artwork between all of his artwork. I do intentionaly not publishing this text as my artwork being placed in gallery, and for exchange for that, I do place audio file for strengthen my surenderness within each inner audience. My sole purpose is for audiences to savor the artwork without having to translate my art in their own perspective, this approach also been executed so audience can have a clear understanding trough discussion with me as an artist and believer.

In down below, I had attach my art work for Sumarah, to savor the artwork, please listen to the music ambience that attached in link below as you enjoying it.

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1EDWKB2NWXVtoSmL1ys06jkUdGmDnvCLF?usp=sharing